Happy Full Moon!
It is said that the Full Moon is a time of release and letting go. To dig deeper then the surface. To acknowledge the truth of what does not vibe with you any longer.
To give perspective on what that may look like, I'm going to share with you the inner work that I'm currently moving through.
A little over week ago my world was unexpectedly rocked by someone, a friend, who spoke to me as if I was shit under their shoe. In front of a group of people. Completely out of left field.
Instantly my blood was boiling. I was confused. I was in shock. and worst of all, I shrunk.
I felt the smallest of small.
Confrontation is a huge no no for me being that I enjoy going with the flow and generally choose to keep a 100% drama free life.
I carried the aftershock of emotions with me all of last week. No matter what I was doing, my mind was there. Replaying over and over again what happened.
Most of all I was doing the work.
Asking myself why this was triggering me.
How was this teaching me?
Where in this situation was this person my mirror?
I knew better then to internalize this into a victim mentality because when situations like this rock you to the core, when you feel the emotions in your bones, when the thoughts literally make your heart hurt, there lives your karmic lesson.
You see, we must go through these moments of upsets, disappointments, upheavals, in order to learn more about ourselves. To heal the deeper realms that need to be healed. To eventually break that karmic cycle that likes to revisit us over and over again in different faces, places, and situations.
There's a powerful quote by Iyanla Vanzant that couldn't be anymore true,
“You can accept or reject the way you are treated by other people, but until you heal the wounds of your past, you will continue to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex, but eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories, and make peace with them”
So I ask you, where in your life are you noticing a repetitive lesson popping up?
What work do you need to acknowledge in order to heal what needs to be healed?
For me, I know this lesson on the surface, was to get my shit together.
The deeper karmic lesson is teaching me that I need to genuinely know myself as being worthy, acknowledged, and accepted.
Today, with the energies of the Full Moon, I am choosing to fully receive this lesson and let go of the way it made me feel. To forgive this person and at the same time thank them for being apart of my healing journey as my teacher.
I hope this post holds space for you to know that it's ok to do the work. That you are important. That you are worthy of your own healing. Be encouraged to look at your current situation as your lesson to only take you higher. If you let it.
Thank you for joining me on this journey,